How to tell you

How to tell you,
That I need so much by my side,
That without you my days are  longer,
If you only know, how much I miss you,

It’s impossible to forget you,
& rip you away from soul,
Your memory is still in my mind,
But now you aren’t here,

What do I say to my heart,
When it asks me about you?
What do I do, when I need your fragrance & your body,
What do I do, when I’m alone and I need you just a little bit,
What do I say, when you’re far from me,

What do I say to my thoughts, even when I want to & try,
I am not able to forget you & erase you,
Tell please, how did you do it?
What do I say to all the stars,
When one day they ask me about you,
What do I say to the whole world?
When they see that you’re not with me.


Thinking of you

Til this day, I can’t go a day without thinking of you, Maria.

My friend, always tell me, when are we going to marry each other, he has even had dreams of us being together.

It hurts me alot, always asking myself,

What did I do wrong?

What do I need to be the man of your life?

Because I don’t want to be just your friend, I want to be your boyfriend, one of your best friends, and eventually be your husband for the rest of my life. Create beautiful and wonderful memories by your side. My soul keeps asking about you and yearning for you.

Life & Death

look at love
how it tangles
with the one fallen in love

look at spirit
how it fuses with earth
giving it new life

why are you so busy
with this or that or good or bad
pay attention to how things blend

why talk about all
the known and the unknown
see how the unknown merges into the known

why think seperately
of this life and the next
when one is born from the last

look at your heart and tongue
one feels but deaf and dumb
the other speaks in words and signs

look at water and fire
earth and wind
enemies and friends all at once

the wolf and the lamb
the lion and the deer
far away yet together

look at the unity of this
spring and winter
manifested in the equinox

you too must mingle my friends
since the earth and the sky
are mingled just for you and me

be like sugarcane
sweet yet silent
don’t get mixed up with bitter words

my beloved grows
right out of my own heart
how much more union can there be

If It’s Not with You

I can’t imagine,
Giving kisses to other lips,
If only yours are the only ones I want to kiss,
I have prohibited myself,

I’ve always wanted,
That your sweet voice,
Would be the voice that caresses me,
Every morning, when I wake up,
How do I explain to you,
My life wouldn’t have any sense,
If its not with you,

If its not with you,
I don’t even want to know,
How it feels to fall in love,
I don’t think I would find that sweetness,
In somebody else, or in another part,
Because even if I find somebody,
I know very well, I’m going to end up missing you,

If it’s not with you,
Tell me, please,
What am I going to do with,
These feelings & emotions,
If you already know,
Only by your side I can calm them,
Don’t ask me on day to,
Rip you away from my soul,
If it’s not with you,
I don’t want anything.

Your Light

Tell me, how to capture your attention,
I know very well, they’ve treated you wrong,
They’ve broken your heart,
Hug me tight,
& don’t be afraid,
Let me explain & show you,
I want to be the one who fills up all the solitude with happiness,
Let me be your light,
Your eyes don’t lie to me,
I can read them clearly,
That what you feel,
You can’t hide it,
Hug me & hold me tight,
& don’t be afraid,
Let me explain & show you,
Let me be your light.

My Full Moon

I swear,
My heart betrays me all the time,
& that’s why I looked at you like, I do,
Like a wolf gazes & howls at the full moon,
& I fell in love with you,
Like I’ve never done with any woman,
I see you,
When I close my eyes,
When I open them,
You aren’t there,
I drown in this nightmare,
From you, I can’t escape,
& give me a sign,
Have compassion, Have mercy,
Tell me, my full moon,
I don’t want to howl at the full moon anymore,
I go crazy in my bed not able to sleep,
Sometimes I talk to the full moon if it can find you,
But she also ignores me,
I tell it, how much I miss you,
It hides behind the clouds,
& it gives me its back,
& I die, I day dream,
Like a river, in a desert,
Like a book without stories,
That’s how bad I feel

My full moon,
Like a nuclear ray,
You’re the only one that can cure my scars,
& I can’t find you,
You enchanted me,
I condemned myself by wanting to taste your lips,
I live following your steps,
In a crystal ball,
& you turn of your light to me,
I feel like my whole world trembles down,

& that’s why I look at you like I do,
Like a wolf gazes & howls at the full moon,
& I fell in love with you,
Like I’ve never done with any woman.

I need to know…

I need to know

Why I can’t stop thinking of you?

I need to know

What did you do to me?

What is an enchantment? a curse? a spell?

Are we meant to be together?

Why is it, that I can only see you & only you with sincere eyes?

I’m dying to love you & for your love

Sometimes, I can’t take it anymore

I just don’t know, how to show you anymore

You only wanted to be friends

but my Heart, won’t let me be just friends

Even everything reminds me of you

You are everything that I’ve desired my whole life

I believe we were a couple before this life

All I know is that I am in love with you

& in my heart there’s only you, now.